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so let's see... today is the first day of october... which is super exciting... actually not super, but it is cool. that means only 8 months left of school.. hurah!

i've already decided that senior year is going to be the best... and it is off to a great start... school honestly is not stressful.. and the only time that i was stressed out as over that math test, which i ended up getting a 95% on... that was a relief... but other than that... i'm simplifying my life... i'm not saying that i wont feel stress or ange or pain or whatever, i'm just going to let the feelings come and go, and not let them drag on. for example, the other day something happened and i lost a great deal of sleep over it, and i thought i was backtracking, but instead, when i woke up, it was gone... i let it affect me for like 2 hours and then it isnt affecting me anymore... so there we go... everything is great... another added bonus is that my friends are amazing. i heart them.

i'm starting a senior scrapbook... so i gotta take lots of pictures and such.. i'm super excited about that... i hope it turns out awesome!

i'm a little nervous because A.B. is taking me out to dinner tuesday... and she'll prolly be talking to me about college... i get the vibe that she's not a big fan of me going to central... idk why... my only guess is that chad is going.. hmmm... i hope i get my acceptance letter soon....

she wants me to go to marquette in wisconsin... i have no desire to go to wisconsin... even if i can get my doctorate in 6 years... why would i want that if those 6 years suck? i dont want to go that far.. the farthest i would go is to chicago and thats only because i love the city...

i just kinda wish people were on my side sometimes...
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so i've been waiting for this weekend like forever...

and it actually kinda sucks...

chad and i were planning on hanging out friday... we planned it for like a week... i know, it sounds ridiculous, but whatever... and so thursday lauren and vicki were like "you should come to the apple orchard with us!" and so i cancelled plans with chad to hang out with my friends... i had a lot of fun... but now.. saturday rolls around... chad's parents are out of town.. my dad is working.. and my mom is picking up katie, going to church, etc.. so what am i supposed to do?? we cant fucking do anything! i dont want to see a movie, i have no money to go shopping (since i've just went twice in the past week)... i hate how my parents arent allowing me to stay home with him.. it just seems like she doesnt trust me... and that's the part that bugs me. we arent going to do anything!!!! and i feel realy bad because this weekend sucks and its all my fault.

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ok a quickie little update sincce i'm bored.. i just woke up about 5 minutes ago and omg i feels sooo good to sleep innnnnn

my new favoite thing i downloading like those not so popular bands thta no one has really heard of, because they music is really good and like you can feel what they are singing about and i love that, since they pretty much write their own songs, and i love bands/artists who do that.

today i'm going out to dinner at famous daves.. it's a pretty good restaurant, i must say.

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yesssss it's finally the weekend!!

katie and took more random pics of ourselves...

yep.. we have no live.. but other that that.. school went by quick enough. i <3 notecard quizzes.. keeps my grade up :-)

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